Hello Anybody's?

Hi.

This is my first post and I really don't know if anybody will read this page ever so I am just going to write what I think here. Maybe some writing idea's. School Drama. Really whatever is on my mind. So here goes nothing:

Today. Its Sunday. I think. Today we had the funeral for Percy. I wish I could forget that he died. I wish he just had not died in the first place really. There are allot of things I regret about how I treated him. What I said to him. Things like that. I feel that I could have at least tired to get him to like me. Even when I found him I was not crying because he would never come and invade my room and make my brain run out my nose in the middle of the night, or that I would never find him in the bathroom sink in the morning while I was trying to brush my teeth. I cried because I was scared. I did not realize until that moment that I could die. It sounds silly but that's really how I felt. He was in the road. Every street crossing I had ever made that was illegal crossed before my eyes and then I pictured Each of my friends down there, by the curb. All cold. And dead. And forgotten. And bloody. Then my sisters. My mom. And myself. I could not stop shaking and I still can't get the picture of him lying down there out of my head.

Of coarse, things haven't changed much for me. I still cross over to the Trax station in the middle of the road. I cross before the little man turns white and tells us to stand in the middle of the road with our foot up (somehow, they think this tells us its safe to walk across the road) and I am still an alergic wreck ever time I try to fall asleep. Its alright thouogh. My sister's are getting over it. I'm just glad I don't have to put up with them screaming and sobing every time I mention his name from now on.

Until next time or something...

Kate